I have been journaling for most of my life. When I say journaling, what I’m really saying is that I use journaling to talk to The Divine. When I’m struggling with something in my life, or another way of saying it; “when I’m thrown out of peace,” I step away for awhile and pour out my heart in a journal, ask questions of The Divine about my situation, and write down the responses that come to my mind, always following the guidance I receive.
This method of “journaling” has; guided me to reconcile with my husband – saving out marriage 22 years ago when we were in the middle of a divorce, healed my client/friend of stage 4 cancer and deconstructed my religious beliefs. So that I could shed my ego, stop people pleasing and find peace. These are just a few miracles I’ve experienced by using the journal as a communication device.
The Key Is To Keep Doubt Out
I’ve been often asked how do we hear God. I would say in two ways; When we are struggling and we cry out to The Divine for wisdom and guidance, completely trusting that we will hear The Divine and that it is in fact The Divine speaking to us, this is hearing God. Just like it says in James 1 of the Bible; “When you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.”
Choosing The Divine Over The Ego
The other way, is the in the hundreds of little decisions we have to make all day long. When faced with a decision; instead of doing what we would normally do and follow the Egotistical Programmed Mind that is; lazy, apathetic and self centered, we pause and pay attention to our conscience and/or intuition, often guiding us to do what is often hard, inconvenient and self sacrificial, is also hearing God.
Most people don’t realize that our conscience and intuition is our birth right. Being one with The Divine, these are our natural abilities and/or higher faculties that are veiled by the Ego. The reason some people hear God clearer than others, is simply because they trust what they are hearing is from The Divine, they don’t doubt it and then out of faith they act upon it.
The Miraculous Journey Home
When I was separated from my husband in 2000, I was living with my boyfriend, severally depressed and suicidal, using my journal, I cried out to The Divine and said; “What do I do? I’m either going to kill myself or do what ever you say!” What I heard was; “Go home!” I protested a little bit, and heard again; “Go home!” To that I responded; “Ok, but you’re going to have to do this!” Meaning I would have to pack up and leave my boyfriend and return to my husband, I had no idea what this would even look like.
That weekend before my boyfriend and I headed to Palm Springs, I called my sister and asked her to keep her cell phone near by because I knew something big was going to happen. Long story short, my boyfriend and I got in a huge fight on our way to dinner the next evening. After he parked the truck in front of the restaurant, I got out and walked a few blocks, finally hiding out in a Denny’s restaurant. Extremely upset, scarred and uncertain about my future. I saw out the window that my boyfriend was driving back and forth in front of Denny’s looking for me, while he at the same time, he was blowing up my phone, leaving messages that were demanding to know where I was. Finally giving up, he left a message he would wait for me at the hotel.
I called my sister to come get me, while I waiting on a curb right outside the door of Dennys. That’s when a lady who looked to be homeless appeared in front of me! She said; “emotional abuse is the worst abuse, now is your time to get out, do you have a ride?” I said yes! She said, she’d be at a near by motel if I needed her and then vanished as quickly as she came, proving to be an angel.
After my angelic encounter, a S.U.V filled with 20 year old guys pulling out of the parking lot, stopped and said; “Jesus loves you!” That’s when I knew I was going home. My sister, her boyfriend (now husband) and my husband came and got me, took me back to the hotel. I packed up my stuff and told my boyfriend I was going to do what God said and go home. His response was really anti-climactic. All he said was that he was going to stay at the resort for the weekend and I left to reconcile my marriage.
My husband and I stopped our divorce 2 days before it was final, took our kids to Las Vegas and renewed our marriage vows. Twenty two years later, we are still together and happily married and are now enjoying our 2 grandsons together! All because I cried out to God for some guidance and didn’t doubt that what I heard was from the Divine and then acted upon it.
I think journaling is great for our mental state of mind to process what we are thinking and feeling. I encourage all my students to journal daily and do what I call Spiritual Heart Surgery when they are thrown out of peace. But for me, journaling conversations with The Divine has been the most important thing in my awakening journey. I encourage you to give it a try.
Gypsy Spirit
Guiding people out of the darkness and into the light.
