I left the Christian Church over 5 years ago and I find it interesting, that now that I’m moving forward in my True Identity as a Divine Being of love/light, people are starting to ask me why I left the faith. They are assuming that leaving the Christian Church, means I don’t have faith in Christ. So I feel it’s time to tell my story for those who have an inquiring mind.
I was introduced to religion by my boyfriend, now husband Bill. His family was very devout in their Conservative Christian Beliefs and a part of the Missionary Baptist Denomination. During my journey through religion, we attended 9 different churches: 7 Baptist, 1 Calvinist and 1 Charismatic. It seemed like most people in these churches were content to attend weekly services, serve in ministries, tithe, read their Bible, pray and worship. I on the other hand was always hungry for more, I wanted to know God.
I would ask the women leaders in the churches about their “quiet time with the Lord,” but all they ever told me, was they prayed and read their Bible. The super spiritual ones, would incorporate worship into their quiet time. These just seemed like rituals to me, I wanted a relationship. Therefore, early every morning I started conversing with the Trinity, through journaling, while the house was still and quiet!
Flash forward to being married 10 years, even though I was conversing with the Trinity, and being a devout Christian, I gave into my egotistical lies and desires and ended leaving my husband for another man. That led me down a dangerous path of depression and suicidal ideation.
One morning I cried out to God and said; “Either I’m going to kill myself or completely give my life to you and follow your guidance.” God said; “Go home!” Meaning go back to your husband. After asking for something else to do, God said again; “Go home!” I replied to God; “Fine I’ll go home but you’ll have to do this. I have no idea how to just pack up and go home, after my boyfriend had just divorced his wife, left his son in Arizona and bought a house for us in Wildomar, CA.”
That weekend my boyfriend and I were going to Palm Springs for his birthday. So I called my sister and told her to keep her cell phone near by, something is going to happen. On our way to Palm Springs, I kept thinking: “I’m going home, but what does this look like?” The next evening I tried to subtly ask my boyfriend questions about his past and if he wished he would have made things work with his first wife, being that I was going to be his 3rd. He responded that he did wish he had tried harder, but the questions tipped him off to what I was contemplating.
On our way to dinner that evening, he went into a rage realizing that I may be leaving him. As he was yelling at me, he parked the truck in front of the restaurant, scared of what may happen I got out and started walking down the middle of Palm Springs, eventually hiding out in a Denny’s Diner. He took off the opposite direction. After blowing up my phone and looking for me, he left a message he’d be waiting at the hotel for me.
After calling my sister and telling her to come get me, I sat on the curb in front of Denny’s, when all of a sudden a lady appeared in front of me, looking very disheveled, maybe even homeless. She said: “emotional abuse is the worst abuse now is your time to get out, do you have a ride?” I said my sister was coming to get me, she said she’d be at a near by hotel if I needed her, and as quickly as she appeared, she vanished. While I continued to wait, a car full of college guys pulling out of the parking lot, stopped and one of them said; “Jesus loves you!” In that moment I knew I was going home.
A little bit later my sister came with her boyfriend, and my husband Bill was in the backseat. They took me back to the hotel, where I told my boyfriend that I was going to reconcile with my husband, because that is what God guided me to do.
That was 23 years ago and we are still happily married. I tell this story because this was the beginning of my journey with Christ. I then went on to attended churches, lead ministries, learned and taught the Bible, healed a lot of people, and had many miraculous experiences, which I do not take lightly and I’m extremely grateful for. That brings me to 2017!
I had started a business called RFWellness, where I incorporated my Christian beliefs with my certification as a Nutrition and Wellness Consultant, helping people heal their: Mind-Body-Spirit. During this time I was also guided by God on how to heal my client/friend of Stage 4 Rectal Melanoma. I’m happy to say she’s still cancer free, just by doing Spiritual Heart Surgery!
Wanting to be a success, I started listening to spiritual entrepreneurs like: Bob Proctor, Wayne Dyer, Lisa Nichols, Marianne Williamson, which lead me to a book called A Course In Miracles. Not knowing anything about the book, I made a lot of assumptions and judgments, even rejecting it because it wasn’t Christian.
Then I decided to give it an honest evaluation and began listening to it online. I was absolutely stunned at how much I resonated with the book and knew deep within my Being that it is truth from Jesus Christ. After two years of being woken up by Holy Spirit at 2:22am to study ACIM along with do Spiritual Heart Surgery, and even having a visitation from Jesus in the form of energy particles, I awoke to my ego. I saw that my ego was using my position as a Christian Leader in the church, to feel special. Although I wanted to help people, my ego had it’s own agenda. Which absolutely sickened me, so I resigned from my ministries and left the church.
Contrary to what most people think, I didn’t walk away from Christ, quite the opposite, I went deeper into knowing my oneness with Christ. My early morning conversations got longer, deeper and became incredibly transforming. I started understanding the deeper meanings of the Bible and what Jesus’ message was all about, which is unity, oneness, unconditional love, etc. that’s why He would say; “I am in you Father, you are in me, we are in them!” “You’ll do greater things than I did!” “You are gods!” “The Kingdom of Heaven is within you!”
As I continued to shed my ego, my True Self in Christ emerged, this is what I call Gypsy Spirit. This also comes from being taken out of my body during a book club meeting, along with other outer body experiences and being with The Trinity or what I call the Divine Committee, which solidified that I am not my body.
Coming to know what I Truly am, along with knowing that I made an two part Egotistical Programmed Mind: The Fearful Victim and Angry Protector, I dissolved them with Spiritual Heart Surgery and living in awareness. Now I teach what I’ve learned and I’m setting people miraculously free, very quickly.
Recently I’ve been hearing gossip about me, that I’m not a Christian and I don’t believe in Jesus, that I’ve left the faith. To clear it all up: It’s true I’m not a Christian. Christianity teaches duality (separation from Christ.) Jesus taught oneness, (which most can’t see until they shed their ego.) It’s true I don’t believe in Jesus, because I know Jesus! It would be like saying “I believe in my husband Bill Ferguson!” No, I know Bill Ferguson, I have a deep relationship with Bill. I have a deeper relationship with Jesus Christ!
There is a huge awakening happening right now, where people are waking up to what they Truly are as a Divine Being, they know their supernatural abilities and the Source of those abilities that we call God, The Divine, or Source. Christians need to know that just because we are leaving organized religion, doesn’t mean we left Christ.
So instead of assuming, judging and gossiping about those who are leaving the Church, I would encourage Christians to meet with them, seek to understand their journey, accept it, appreciate it, and be as Christ – Unconditional Love.
Gypsy Spirit (aka Rhonda Ferguson)
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