Today I called out sick! For anyone who knows me, you may find that a bit shocking. For those who don’t know me, you’re probably thinking what’s the big deal, everyone gets sick from time to time.
Well let me introduce myself, I’m Rhonda Ferguson, Wellness Coach/Business Owner/Biblical Counselor/ Health Ministry Leader etc. I help people get well in their Mind-Body-Spirit!
To the best of my ability:
I don’t let a negative thought stay in my head – I don’t eat GMO foods – I’m gluten free, sugar free – I detox constantly and take an insane amount of supplements – I workout most days – Juice veggies everyday – I’m also a Christian and have an amazing relationship with God – I have a great marriage to my high school sweet heart – I have two successful, grown children and I can do a pretty good job of helping you to over come any problem. BLAH, BLAH, BLAH, I even feel sick reading that paragraph! I just had to paint the picture for you!
BUT the truth is, I don’t let many people see that I’m human too! Last week my friend exposed me to her virus, then I went to Las Vegas for a wedding, I ate a bunch of crappy food, had a glass of wine in the stratosphere with my hubby and then went and ate Mexican food (GMO chips!) and I had a margarita! Yep, I’m a new creature in Christ and I’m also human, not perfect, and at the moment my body is very toxic!
As I drift in and out of sleep today, drinking a massive amount of veggie juice, vitamins/minerals and detoxing, God’s been teaching me somethings about vulnerability and that is:
To be as Jesus said “Be perfect as I am perfect!” It doesn’t mean, never sinning or making a mistake, it means being as vulnerable as he is. Willing to step outside our comfort zone into the unknown, share our mistakes, with the purpose of being love to another human being, letting them know, I struggle too and in the process, I’m willing to take a huge risk of being tremendously hurt, because you’re worth it!
We have all experienced, rejection, not feeling like we belong and/or loved. Because of those experiences, satan is constantly trying to shame us and cause us to stay hidden! Why do you think that is? Well, I think it’s because once we recognize where the toxic feelings originated in our life, along with the shameful feelings, we can get rid of them, own our crap and embrace the fact that wholeness, power and love is found in vulnerability. Then we can crush him, and help others to do the same.
I recently had someone ask me about some place I went, because of course I posted a picture of it on Facebook and as a result, it seemed like I had an awesome time. I told him, I was miserable, I wouldn’t go back. He said “but by the looks of your picture, you made it seem like you were having fun!” I said, “oh you mean fake book, well of course, isn’t that what most people do?” Deep down we want people to believe we have a perfect life, in an effort to mask the wounds of rejection, not belonging and being unloved.
I propose we start a vulnerability community, all are invited that are willing to admit: I’m not ok, I need help, I have deep wounds I’m working on, I don’t feel like I belong, I’ve felt rejected my whole life, I’m healing please be patient with me and know I’m a work in process!
Rhonda Ferguson
www.RFWellness.net